just a short note before i head to bed cause of work tomorrow.... but you know i feel really really stupid tonite i spaced it off that its beltaine *nods nods* no wonder the mood i have been i'm in *laughs* rather sad to be doing nothing for beltaine but i got sick hopefully feeling better soon i should really be going to sleep to as i have to be up in a few hrs for work so i'm making this short.  just wanted to let yo know of my blonde moemt... talk to you tomorrow chicka...

so i'm sitting here listening to music my normal mix that most of my friends know of with some new added to the list.... rob thomas steamy hot sexy him... nitty gritty dirt band (fishing in the dark) cernunnos, and creature of the woods ok so i listened to that one a few times over and over andover and looking at the pic i have on my desktop when i realized just outta the blue the look i look for in someone is the same for instance if we look at my pic of pan he looks like someone in paticular.. so we go to the pic on my desk top him and i have always been and always will be a part of each other but i just realized i am wanting him someone who loks like him ok yea i just want him really badly or least maybe its just something that is inside me right now.  but its been this way for about hmmm lets see my daughter is almost 8 so about 5 years now.  both him and i feel we have been together in a past life he even said i was his first at one point he introduced me to one of his girlfriends just to see if i would be ok with her and approve of her.  *winks* of course i didn't approve just as he never fully approved of who i was with.  we have not been "together" in this life physically but other ways we have. anway i think i may just need to get laid and thats why hes in my thoughts *shrugs*

ok so it seems i have found another groupy thing...not like i needed another to belong to however this seems much different and much better so far... so here i am writing my first blog whoot whoot...well that and searching immigration stuff about england.. fun yes.. anyway thats about all for tonite.